Have you lost all hope in your life or possibly feel as though you are at the end of your rope? If you feel like your only option is suicide, this post is for you. I found myself in this situation years ago. Trust me, you can find your hope in God especially when you hit rock bottom. Look up, God is your hope.
The following verse is a wonderful reminder of God’s grace, isn’t it? To know that God delivers us from ALL of our afflictions is mind-blowing.
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all. Psalm 34:18-19
Do YOU believe that promise is for you today? Are you in a situation where it feels like you lost all hope? I believe in God’s promise now, but there was a time when I felt it did NOT exist for me and that’s the truth because I too lost all hope.
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You Find God When You Hit Rock Bottom
God has placed within my heart, another hard topic for me. The last blog post I did was on Tyler the first grandchild we had that we lost to SIDS at 4 1/2 months. That one was extremely difficult for me to write about.
This next topic isn’t gonna be much easier! I believe it’s safe to assume, that God is wanting to bring closure and healing to my heart and soul.
I thought that I had dealt with these issues, and shut the door on them, but God has placed them, in my heart for a reason.
God knows us better than we know ourselves, doesn’t he?
I want you to understand that there was a time in my life when I lost all hope whatsoever and found myself at the end of my rope!
What does the end of my rope mean?
Noun. the end of one’s rope. (idiomatic) The limit of one’s patience is when one is so frustrated or annoyed that one can no longer cope.
I am at the end of my rope with these train delays. (idiomatic) The point at which one has run out of options or the ability to delay.
Where does the phrase at the end of your rope come from?
The term at the end of one’s rope is primarily an American phrase, though it may be traced back to the 1680s.
The idea is of someone who has been thrown a safety rope and has run out of length.
At the end of one’s tether also means to be at the end of one’s strength, endurance, or patience.
I lost all hope and felt so desolate, empty, completely and utterly alone. These were some of the loneliness and darkest times I have ever faced.
No one was willing to support or help me and I truly believed no one would care if anything happened to me.
I was separated from my family because I let fear keep me from them. It was easier and caused less trouble with my ex-husband because EVERY TIME I’d bring up wanting to go see them accusations would start flying.
False Accusations Leads You To lose hope
I ONLY wanted to see my family and tell them how I was treated and wanted their help in being able to leave my marriage. Can you believe I was even accused of wanting my Stepdad? Really?
Let me tell you about one night in particular when I felt I lost all hope for my life. You must understand that I was at my lowest of lows.
In all honesty, I finally hit rock bottom and I was so beaten down. The night I’m referring to was one of the worst fights my ex-husband and I EVER had.
You Find God When You Hit Rock Bottom
- spit on
- food was thrown at me
- hair yanked out of my head
- called every name you could come up with.
I could list more that took place but this post isn’t about domestic violence and, to be honest, I don’t like to put down another person no matter how bad it had been. Simply put, he needs Jesus!
After all that had taken place on this particular night, I hit rock bottom and I lost all hope for my life whatsoever. I couldn’t overcome the fear that shook me to my core.
Don’t Allow Fear To Win
That said, however, I DID NOT WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE! Fear took over Big Time!!
I thought if this is what my life was going to be like I wanted NO part of it anymore. I had put up with so much and had so much done to me that I couldn’t see any way out of it and I was at the end of my rope and lost all hope.
The Pain and Suffering Are Too Much
In my mind, I was doing the best thing by wanting the pain and suffering to end! NOW!!!! I couldn’t take it anymore! Have you ever felt unworthy to be loved? Everyone around me acted as though nothing had just transpired!
I can remember thinking I’d be better off dead! So I did what I NEVER thought I’d EVER do. I found a bottle of pain pills or muscle relaxers one I honestly can’t remember which and downed the ENTIRE bottle.
As I felt my heartbeat slowing to nearly nothing I could barely put one foot in front of the other. I didn’t give a hoot about dying and where I would spend eternity. Check out this song by the group Third Day. I Need A Miracle.
What Is Divine Intervention Meaning?
Divine intervention is the involvement of a deity in human life, popularly extended to any miraculous-seeming turn of events.
Divine intervention is the involvement (intervention) of a deity (divine) in the affairs of humans. Its form can be direct, such as the actual visual or auditory manifestation of a deity to humans.
In the Christian religion, miracles are considered forms of divine intervention, with believers feeling they’ve appeared amid a crisis or in response to prayers
All I wanted to do at that point was crawl under the bed covers and NOT wake up. Even though I stopped living my life for God, I heard him speak to me. YOU ARE MINE! “If you go to bed right now, you will NOT wake up!”
My Divine Intervention
I was almost to my bedroom door when a Heavenly intervention shook me to my core. A force of its own propelled me out my front door and (please excuse the phrasing) where I vomited profusely for what seemed like the longest time.
All I can say about this event is there’s no answer or explanation other than the Holy Spirit showed up and took over. Many people don’t believe in modern-day miracles, but I do!
Satan Comes To Steal, Kill, And Destroy
Satan knows exactly when to pounce, doesn’t he? He knew I was at my lowest point.
The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life and that they may have it more abundantly. John 10:10
I discovered much later even though I wasn’t talking to my family at the time my Sweet Mama said she felt compelled to Pray for me. It was on this specific day and time when she felt in her spirit it was a life or death situation for me.
She was ready to drive over and check on me but decided against it however she prayed and asked for God’s protection over me. Now if that wasn’t the Holy Spirit working on my behalf I don’t know what else to call it.
SATAN’S Job Is To Drive A Wedge Between You And God
At this time in my life, I had severed my relationship with God and had turned my back on him, and walked away. I let situations and circumstances drive a wedge between us that I should’ve NEVER let happen.
What do you do when you’ve lost all hope?
If you’re at the end of your rope, muster up every bit of strength and energy that you can find and do what I should’ve done from the start…TURN TO GOD’S STRENGTH! Not your own!
Look Up and You Will Find God
Use whatever you have left in the tank to get you to tie that knot and hold on. Remember that you’ll eventually make it out. You’ll make it to the other side of that rope.
BUT GOD…MY TWO FAVORITE WORDS!!
God saved ME from me that night and I know that with all my heart! Do you want to hear the hardest and saddest part of that whole night?
I had two beautiful kids to live for and they needed me to continue being there for them but I couldn’t see past my pain. I didn’t care what I was doing or who I was leaving behind on this particular night.
You don’t understand how much it hurts admitting that to you but it’s me putting my vulnerability out there for you to see.
That said, anxiousness over it can NOT win! I only Pray that it may help someone else who may be going through a similar issue.
You don’t have to lose hope. I’d tell you:
- DON’T DO IT!
- GET THE HELP YOU NEED!
- IT’S NOT WORTH IT!
I can not stress enough what an abusive situation does to your self-esteem and spirit. No one should feel as if they have lost all hope for their life.
Ignore The Lies
You start believing ALL the lies and are made to believe it’s all your fault. The blame will be put squarely on your shoulders and you’ll be told that it’s your fault the way they are and act the way they do.
What are 12 Feelings That Can Hold You Captive?
- Loss of control
- Not feeling safe
- Physical symptoms
If you find that MY STORY is YOUR STORY, Please know you can get past it!
Don’t Give Up and Kick Satan To The Curb!
Don’t allow Satan’s lies to convince you to do what I did! It’s ONLY by God’s grace alone that I am still breathing today and I will keep sharing my Testimony with others.
I will tell people everywhere that Jesus Christ is THE WAY, THE TRUTH, AND THE LIFE. He will be there for you when no one else is!
God Is There For You
No matter how bad things may look on the outside or how alone you may feel on the inside, God is there for you. He was there for me too I just couldn’t see it or else I chose to ignore it.
Either way, don’t give up hope.
You have hope in a Savior you can turn to with ANY issue and EVERY problem that may come your way.
Suicide Is Not A Solution
You aren’t meant to carry the loads you try so hard to hang on to. Jesus says for you to lay your burdens at his feet and let him carry them for you.
Come to me, all who labor and are heavily laden, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28
If You Find Yourself At The End Of Your Hope, Turn To God He Will See You Through It.
Help for abused women
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Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Matthew 11:28
Call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) at any time day or night 24/7, to talk to someone who understands. Or go online at www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org for more information and help.
Has there been a time in your life when lost all hope, like me? It’s only by the grace of God and His Heavenly intervention that can save you from these thoughts. Trust me, I’ve been there and I know. If you or a loved one is struggling with suicidal thoughts and tendencies please get help and don’t try to face this on your own. There are helpful ways to find healing from abuse and there are many people who will come on this journey with you. If You find yourself in this position, please turn to God, He will sustain you.
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